What have I done to deserve this?
Stupid question really, none of us have done anything to deserve it, but I’m now realising how ill equiped I am to deal with getting bad news.
I cried for many hours last night - I am not in a good place to deal with another loss. If I thought that there was any realistic chance of the clomid/inj cycle working I wouldn’t have done it.
The tests are not getting darker - the ones today are the same as when I got a beta of 130 last time, it need to be double that by now if there’s an chance of it working out.
I have no symptoms apart from sore boobs (?progesterone).
At least tomorrow it should be over one way or another.
Oh I almost forgot - if (hell freezes over etc) this pregnancy continues my first scan is booked for March 9th, the day we are going to our first recurrent loss group. I’m taking that as a bad omen.
