I feel completely isolated, it is probably my own fault. I am so vulnerable at the moment, I’m keeping things together somehow but I’m just crying inside. I do not want to be the needy, neurotic friend so I can’t tell anyone that … and because that’s all I’ve got to say at the moment I can’t tell anyone anything. I hate being weak and pathetic and I’m stubborn. So here I am all on my own & not doing brilliantly.