September ‘98 - blighted ovum, discovered at 8 weeks.

November ‘00 - a live birth! With a pregnancy blighted by hyperemesis, pre eclampsia, pPROM, preterm (EMCS) delivery, ABO incompatibility, a short stay in the SCBU. 

June ‘02 - miscarriage at 5 weeks, pretty standard +hpt followed by bleeding.

December ‘02 - missed miscarriage at 13 weeks, the baby died around at 8 weeks, we got a heart beat this time but it didn’t last.

May ‘03 - another 5 or 6 week loss.

We then had 2+ years of not conceiving at all.

November ‘05 - an ICSI cycle resulted our daughter Estella, we lost her twin very early in the pregnancy. Bleeding from a subchorionic haematoma, pPROM & placental abruption, Stella died just after 14 weeks.

October ‘06 - live birth! Conceived easily with timed intercourse & a smidge of puregon. Fabulous pregnancy (if you ignore the terror & depression), delivery & son - life is great.

July ‘08 - Toby dies at around 17 weeks. Don’t know why. Spontaneous conception on the 10th cycle after my periods returned.

Trying not to think about ‘now what?’

I miss my son, but I’m lucky, my children visit his grave with me.