Stopped countingSeptember 30, 2008 11:04 am
Breast pain today, no nausea. Haven’t got a lot of CM usually have loads by now.
Debating whether to start the cyclogest or not.
Stopped countingSeptember 29, 2008 5:56 pm
Medication (if only that were all we need)
20mg/day clexane
20mg/day prednisolone
200mg cyclogest BD
75mg/day aspirin - increasing to 150mg if my platelets are okay (testing tomorrow, won’t get the results for a week or so I expect).
Have appointments for scan, with midwife, with consultant OB, with miscarriage gynae and at the maternal medicine centre. About as different as it is possible to be from Toby’s pregnancy. Still not diagnosed with anything wrong.
Would like a different outcome too.
No pregnancy symptoms, no sticks to pee on, no HCG levels.Stopped countingSeptember 25, 2008 11:47 am
and ignoring it is very difficult.
I just went to the loo, wiped & there was lots of pink blood. Heart stopped. Further investigation revealed that it is apparently not vaginal. I’m worried the aspirin/heparin is making me bleed, I have a tiny pile (lovely) & think it is from that.
Can’t speak to my dr until tomorrow. It is so difficult not to care.
Stopped countingSeptember 24, 2008 12:36 pm
I’m sitting here looking at two lines.
It is close to an immaculate conception.
I’ve started 20mg clexane & 20mg of prednisolone in addition to the aspirin.
Am trying to contact my doctor.
Number 9, but who’s counting.
UncategorizedSeptember 23, 2008 2:12 pm
Autumn has arrived faster than I expected. It’s cold, I’m knitting gloves & socks, I have a pile of yarn for jumpers. Our only heating is the wood burning stove but it’s too early for that now.
Claudia is out today, riding with her frinds, she’ll be wet & tired when she gets home. Jasper has a cold, he’s spent most of the day sitting with me on the sofa, watching Maisy & eating toast.
I’ve cried today - partly because C isn’t here, mostly PMS I think. I don’t know where my period is - I had a tiny bit of spotting on Saturday but nothing since, loads of cramps though. I think my LMP was August 23th? 31 days is a long cycle but not unheard of. I know I’m not pregnant.
I got a confrmation letter from the big univseristy centre this morning … you know I don’t want to go. I don’t want to be weighed & measured & have my BP taken, I don’t want to give more blood. I don’t want to be patronized. I just want to be left alone right now.
An IF blogger who’s daughter shared Jasper’s due date is pregnant, I revisited her blog yesterday. She’s having a boy, she’s so hopeful.
I’m so sad.
UncategorizedSeptember 22, 2008 2:19 pm
Still waiting.
Usually saying my period is late makes it start.
Pregnancy #8September 20, 2008 4:54 pm
PM found nothing wrong - Toby was absolutely as he should be for his gestation, the placenta was normal, all my results were normal. No active infections - I’m immune to parvovirus, CMV, toxoplasmosis and rubella (the big nasties for pregnancy) - nothing to suggest that infection was the cause of his death. My clotting results were categorically normal - I believe the anticardiolipin level was <2. Well that’s what we’ve been told anyway, I have a copy of the PM & all my notes but haven’t been able to open them yet.
OB would be confident of a good outcome ‘next time’ if we were any other couple but as it is she wouldn’t like to hazard a guess about what’s going on or what will happen. She has agreed that ‘next time’ I’ll be taking 25mg/day prednisolone, 150mg/day of aspirin and 20mg/day of clexane form a positive. Absolutely no evidence to support it’s use but at least we tried (that was what I had in my last successful pregnancy). I don’t have APLS, I’m sure of that, NK cell stuff? Maybe, I’m not convinced & tbh I don’t really care there’s nothing we can try beyond steroids/anticoagulation (I’m not willing to try IVIg again) so it doesn’t really matter.
Claudia is really hurting - she came home from church last night in tears, stories of people killing baby boys & babies in baskets - the only thing that will fix it is another baby and obviously it isn’t that easy.
Pretty sure tomorrow will be CD1, 14 days after positive OPK & I think I ovulated the same day as the positive which gives me a LP of 13-14 days. I think we might ‘try’ this cycle. We’re being seen at the big university fetal medicine centre in a couple of weeks, although I doubt they’ll say anything different. I’ve also be asked to be referred back to the recurrent loss clinic (the one who didn’t want to treat me last time), I’m hoping that they can be persuaded to do a couple of monitored cycles, I’d like to get the query PCOS issue resolved.
Pregnancy #8September 7, 2008 7:33 pm
tomorrow. We have the post-mortem results appointment this week. I’m trying to get my shit togther so we actually get the stuff we need done - you wouldn’t belive the trouble we’ve had with drs not doing things they promised they would. We’ve got three complaints pending.
I got a nearly positive OPK this morning, don’t think I’m going to test again, we’re not ‘trying’. Life’s just grand 
Doing lots of crying again.
