PM found nothing wrong - Toby was absolutely as he should be for his gestation, the placenta was normal, all my results were normal. No active infections - I’m immune to parvovirus, CMV, toxoplasmosis and rubella (the big nasties for pregnancy) - nothing to suggest that infection was the cause of his death. My clotting results were categorically normal - I believe the anticardiolipin level was <2. Well that’s what we’ve been told anyway, I have a copy of the PM & all my notes but haven’t been able to open them yet.

OB would be confident of a good outcome ‘next time’ if we were any other couple but as it is she wouldn’t like to hazard a guess about what’s going on or what will happen. She has agreed that ‘next time’  I’ll be taking 25mg/day prednisolone, 150mg/day of aspirin and 20mg/day of clexane form a positive. Absolutely no evidence to support it’s use but at least we tried (that was what I had in my last successful pregnancy). I don’t have APLS, I’m sure of that, NK cell stuff? Maybe, I’m not convinced & tbh I don’t really care there’s nothing we can try beyond steroids/anticoagulation (I’m not willing to try IVIg again) so it doesn’t really matter.

Claudia is really hurting - she came home from church last night in tears, stories of people killing baby boys & babies in baskets - the only thing that will fix it is another baby and obviously it isn’t that easy.

Pretty sure tomorrow will be CD1, 14 days after positive OPK & I think I ovulated the same day as the positive which gives me a LP of 13-14 days. I think we might ‘try’ this cycle. We’re being seen at the big university fetal medicine centre in a couple of weeks, although I doubt they’ll say anything different. I’ve also be asked to be referred back to the recurrent loss clinic (the one who didn’t want to treat me last time), I’m hoping that they can be persuaded to do a couple of monitored cycles, I’d like to get the query PCOS issue resolved.