since my last ‘I’m so scared’ post. So I can’t really say it again.

Specifically, I am scared that the scan next week will show I’ve had a mmc. I keep finding myself wondering whether I should have another ERPC if that is the case. The root cause of this anxiety is (i) I think baby was measuring a couple of days behond at the last scan, that scares me, a lot (ii) I haven’t got a bump - at all. This is my 5th pregnancy that has made it to the second trimester, with Toby I felt very pregnant, with a little bump this point.

I still feel very sick.

I’m wondering what will happen if the baby is dead. 

I hate the steroids.