but it is moving so slowly. The last four weeks have dragged by.
I’m 21 weeks on Friday, I have the anomaly scan tomorrow with cervical assessment & uterine artery dopplers. I even have a c-section date. I thought it was hard with Jasper? This is a billion times worse. Four or five times a day I am convinced that the baby has died - despite feeling movement & almost continuous use of the doppler. Last night I had a proper, sickening flashback to when I couldn’t find Toby’s heartbeat. Then I had a panic attack, which was extremely unpleasant (hahaha understatement - I thought I was dying).
That’s why I don’t post much, because there is much point - the pregnancy is moving forwards to the point at which a miscarriage becomes a stillbirth (24 weeks in the UK) and I don’t foresee any respite from the fear.
