We’re leaving for the scan in an hour. I have sweaty palms, constantly running to the loo, churning stomach, headache, I feel breathless & dizzy, my heart is racing. I’m close to tears. My hands are shaking. My feet are cold, I don’t know what shoes to wear.
I woke at 4am & couldn’t get back to sleep, I’ve dopplered the baby twice already. It doesn’t reassure me, I feel better when I feel him move but he’s very so quiet this morning. He was active all day yesterday, I felt okay, I didn’t even doppler before I went to bed.
I messed up my clexane & hit a capillary, I’ve only done that a couple of times in god-knows how many shots. I watched a huge green bruise appear and spread. It hurts.
I fucking hate this, I really do. I want to scream. I won’t say anything to anyone, I’ll swallow it & smile. Is this how other people feel?
